flowers
Nothing grows in my garden....
'cept weeds and wild flowers...
No roses, no fruit, no edible or delightable life...
Nothing grows in my garden...
'cept words of sorrow and discontent....
Ancient memories and perhaps regret...
In my garden nothing grows!
She sings but there are no words
She moves but does not reach
She cries but there are no tears
There are people but she is alone
There is much undone but she does it alone
There is much that she didn't see
There are cracks and broken glass
Dirty linen and muddy tracks
... no castles only sand.
Sometimes she feels weak
Sometimes she is amused
But most times she is alone
But there is still a smile that lingers deep 'cause one stage leads to another
and it has to be better!
maybe that's what I need to get up and get out that door!
into something, into a new feeling of accomplishment ... school, work, dreams I need to run after them i need to find new ones and seek them out.
Yep that's what I need to get up and get out that door!
anyone willing to give me a kick!
Well with that realised ... mainly due to the fact that I met some friends I hadn't socialised with in ages and I do mean ages.... all of whom are at different stages of becoming full fledged lawyers.
A reporter, a judge's assistant and the other recently married and living in England, while her husband is working in Russia.
And where am I .... I guess I feel that compared to their evolving lives mine just has stopped and I live now to suite the needs of others so much so that I feel old and tired and devoid of achieving much....
Nevertheless despite my tiny tinge of desire... it was absolutely great and refreshing to see them all again ... cause they have each given me back some wonderful memories and a piece of the old me again....
good news makes each breath seem like a precious commodity!
if i were on a swing i'd shout, 'higher!' 
2007
A test of courage
I stand alone in a world I'd rather not be in...
I have found that I am patient and that I am brave ...that I can shoulder any burden alone...
I have found that sometimes that is a lie and that I do need a gesture of affection and concern
From one doctor to another
waiting waiting
from one test to the next - ultrasound, blood and biopsy
waiting waiting
But I am brave and can shoulder any burden alone.
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